I am a useless person

Have you ever think about what will you be another 5 years time? or another 10 years time?
You going to be the same like now.. ?
You going to be someone different.. ?
Different in what sense.. ?
Having a better life or getting poorer.. ?

I could not even dare to imagine my future.. I've been hiding under my shell for months. I am afraid to look at the long narrow road. I am afraid I will be in the same position. I just afraid. I just have no guts to think more about my future. I am just afraid of everything.

I became a useless person.