I had enough of this!

Had a little argument with my mom bout next month event. Not really argue but just a little disagreement between us. I am still thinking whether I should go for the event or not. If I do so, I feel bad. But in the same time, if I go for the event, I feel bad too! I just hate to make decision and yet I always need to decide which way I should choose. I just hate this kind of feelings. Either do it or don’t do it. No matter which way I choose, I just feel sad. Maybe I should just let be until the day comes because I really can’t give any answer now nor decide anything now.