Yes, indeed it's quite confused at times and dream bout things that I know it won't happen but yet I continued to just letting it taking over me. In deep down on me I know that what I really wanted and what I already have. Yet, I am still debating over myself. I know it's just matter of time that it will soon gone. For now, I am just enjoying the time I have now and also being emotional at things at this point of time. Random, yes, random.