Is 7th September is a compulsory holiday? I hope it is but mostly my hope crash! There is a church camp next month from 5th to 7th. People were telling me that 7th is a holiday and I am so happy at first but later on I found out 7th is not listed under my company holiday list. I want to take leave but I think my annual leave is not enough since I forgot to take MC on the 6th on this month when I go for MRI. Should I apply unpaid leave? No, I can’t. My mom will be chasing me with a knife if I did that because she don’t like I take unpaid leave for going out. If I am sick then it is a different story. So what shall I do? I know. While they are having fun there, I will be alone in my house hugging my shroom and – sobs? Let’s not think about it now.
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Anyone here loves art? What about cakes? Cupcakes? Cookies? I came across a website and I was stunned with the author of it. She is awesome – word that I only has for now. People who likes baking and who likes design should really see her work of art. It is wonderful. If you are interested, please log on to this website; delectable or go to her blog. I hope one day I can afford to ask her to design a cake for my mom birthday. I have the idea in my head know. *laughs* I really do hope I can afford one day! =)
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I’m a little bit confused with what I am doing now. I mean, I want to know what I am thinking. While I am doing things, my head is thinking a lot of things and while I try to sit and think what I am thinking, I am blank. It bothers me a lot. Am I okay? Maybe everything cramp into my head and I can’t think properly and it affect my emotion. I am happy but yet I am emo. * scratch head* It feels weird now. Besides, I am doing something very stupid everyday. I think I really should slap myself as hard as possible to wide awake from my dreams.
Now, I feel so sleepy. I really do deserve a slap. Come people just slap me. =)
Thursday, August 13
Wednesday, August 12
Wednesday
H1N1 is getting worst. I hope it will disappear soon.
Everyone is getting sick. Coughing, flu is everywhere. I pray that those who are sick will be healed!
These two days I am happy. I changed the forum layout and I did the header by using Microsoft Power Point yesterday. I know I am very lame for using that to design but I do not have any other sources and I am definitely not a designer, so I have no designer sense. However it turns out to be pretty okay and few youths say it’s nice, so I guess I succeed for the first try! As for today, I am happy – in facebook.
I am looking forward for this Sunday; Cell Sunday in Aunty Christine house. I am kind of disappointed when I know Boys Brigade is going on and my mood was spoilt at first. But later on, I feel its okay without them. We can have more fun while they are not there. We might go for Pyramid too. So let’s enjoy while they suffer! =) I am so evil – as usual teach by Joel Goh.
Okay, I got to back in working spirit! I have lots of things to do and I don’t want “that” someone to talk so much.
Everyone is getting sick. Coughing, flu is everywhere. I pray that those who are sick will be healed!
These two days I am happy. I changed the forum layout and I did the header by using Microsoft Power Point yesterday. I know I am very lame for using that to design but I do not have any other sources and I am definitely not a designer, so I have no designer sense. However it turns out to be pretty okay and few youths say it’s nice, so I guess I succeed for the first try! As for today, I am happy – in facebook.
I am looking forward for this Sunday; Cell Sunday in Aunty Christine house. I am kind of disappointed when I know Boys Brigade is going on and my mood was spoilt at first. But later on, I feel its okay without them. We can have more fun while they are not there. We might go for Pyramid too. So let’s enjoy while they suffer! =) I am so evil – as usual teach by Joel Goh.
Okay, I got to back in working spirit! I have lots of things to do and I don’t want “that” someone to talk so much.
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Monday, August 10
I am sorry if this post makes anyone sad or angry.
I am thinking too much again lately. Tears rolling down without noticed. Yesterday night, I think too much. I think of friends that once I called best friend and still treat them as best friend, has been drew far apart now. We might be meeting each other right now but the feeling is gone. I don’t know how to describe this but, what I can say is I prefer not to be with them. I remembered once a friend said to me “You can tell us everything. We are friends and you even said that we are your best friend. Why not just tell us what you have gone through and what you are going through now? We might able to help you and if not we can be the one who listens.” I never agree with this statement, until today, this statement is still wrong – for me. Can I really tell everything? Can I just tell and they will listen? They might for the first few times. However, they won’t really listen to you after that. They are numb with your talking, they are numb with your problem, they are numb with listening to you, they are annoyed with you and wanted to just ask you to stop telling them things. I feel it now.
People, do you think you really know about me? You might describe me as a loud, talkative, crazy person. I might talk loudly, playing games with everyone, laughing crazily with everyone but deep inside me is different. If I want to be myself, I will totally dissimilar with what you people see me as.
I don’t need people to share my problems with. I just need people to really treat me as a friend. I noticed that now when I try to talk people, they might just nod their heads or replied with a single “oh”, “ya”, “OK”. This makes me feel like not talking my stuff to anyone anymore and when I do not people keep said that I keep everything to myself and do not tell them and they can’t help if I don’t tell. People, try to think how you treat me before saying I don’t want to tell. I’ve been keeping a lot of things to myself lately. I don’t feel like sharing because this is the reason.
I did not share my problem with someone. Don’t say that I rather go to someone that I should not go to, to share my problems. I did not. We were just talking normal things and actually it makes me feels better than those BEST FRIENDS around me. Saying bout best friends, is it what I did is not good enough? Is it I am not worth it to be a best friend of you people? I just don’t know. I can bluntly say now that I eliminate my entire best friend list. I can’t trust anyone for now. I am sorry if I hurt anyone here but it is a fact that I am really tried my best to be just a friend, just a friend to everyone but I failed badly.
To someone who sms-ed me yesterday,
Thank you for telling me you will be sad without me and I always make you happy. You did not regret have a friend like me.
I feel better with what you said to me. What you have said, it goes same to me. Although how sad I am but still I never regretting to be friend with everyone. Not a single person makes me regret. Everyone is my friend.
People, do you think you really know about me? You might describe me as a loud, talkative, crazy person. I might talk loudly, playing games with everyone, laughing crazily with everyone but deep inside me is different. If I want to be myself, I will totally dissimilar with what you people see me as.
I don’t need people to share my problems with. I just need people to really treat me as a friend. I noticed that now when I try to talk people, they might just nod their heads or replied with a single “oh”, “ya”, “OK”. This makes me feel like not talking my stuff to anyone anymore and when I do not people keep said that I keep everything to myself and do not tell them and they can’t help if I don’t tell. People, try to think how you treat me before saying I don’t want to tell. I’ve been keeping a lot of things to myself lately. I don’t feel like sharing because this is the reason.
I did not share my problem with someone. Don’t say that I rather go to someone that I should not go to, to share my problems. I did not. We were just talking normal things and actually it makes me feels better than those BEST FRIENDS around me. Saying bout best friends, is it what I did is not good enough? Is it I am not worth it to be a best friend of you people? I just don’t know. I can bluntly say now that I eliminate my entire best friend list. I can’t trust anyone for now. I am sorry if I hurt anyone here but it is a fact that I am really tried my best to be just a friend, just a friend to everyone but I failed badly.
To someone who sms-ed me yesterday,
Thank you for telling me you will be sad without me and I always make you happy. You did not regret have a friend like me.
I feel better with what you said to me. What you have said, it goes same to me. Although how sad I am but still I never regretting to be friend with everyone. Not a single person makes me regret. Everyone is my friend.
Friday, August 7
a day
- I feel not right today.
- Feel like missing something.
- I keep thinking.
- I keep waiting.
- I keep looking.
- No signs of it.
Anyway, I am still in the sick mood. I catch the flu after I went to hospital yesterday. Oh ya, have I tell bout the MRI scans yesterday? Nope, I haven’t because I did not blog anything yesterday. =p
Yesterday Esther fetches me to hospital. I felt so guilty because she has to wait for me. MRI scan is scary for me. I have to go in to the machine. I need to lie down on the bed. Then those people explaining this and that to me. They are very polite to me too maybe due to I am a LITTLE KID for them. =.=” Then there’s a guy hand me a headphone to wear on. One of the lady told me that because the process is very noisy so I better wear it. The guy told me that it is radio. I feel so happy because I can listen to radio. =) Then I asked them how long is the duration inside that thingy since Esther is alone outside waiting for me. What if I will be in there for 3 hours? Then Esther will be outside for 3 hours. -.- The guy said “Kalau you baik-baik tak gerak-gerak, 30 minit lah. Kalau tak baik-baik, 40 minit.” I was like “sorry Esther” =)
Then I went in that MRI machine. SO scary. I was not allowed to move and on my left hand there’s a thing for me to press incase I feel not right. It’s a bell. I feel like pressing it a few times because I am bored. =p I almost press it when the radio start. -.- Scared me. I am so scared! They lady say want me to listen to the radio so that I won’t hear the noisy sound. But, the radio is very soft! I can’t even hear clearly and the process is so LOUD! Worst case of all, it’s malay song. I don’t discriminate malay songs. Just that it’s too rock. Why not put Siti Nurhaliza songs? Aiyoyo.. hehe.. Suddenly, when I made my decision to sleep, everything stop. What happen? They say you are done. So fast? How long I’ve been in there? “You baik-baik, tak gerak, jadi 25 minit ade la.” -.-
“Macam –mana mau gerak? Inside so space-less. Anyway, everything ended earlier than expected. I wanted go for a check up for H1N1 but I afraid Esther need to wait again. So I did not check. I hope I am okay. Okay?! People, don’t come near me. I am really very sick.
Oh ya, my HR manager going to Australia. Hope she have a nice trip. MS. WONG, ENJOY YOUR TRIP… =)
- Feel like missing something.
- I keep thinking.
- I keep waiting.
- I keep looking.
- No signs of it.
Anyway, I am still in the sick mood. I catch the flu after I went to hospital yesterday. Oh ya, have I tell bout the MRI scans yesterday? Nope, I haven’t because I did not blog anything yesterday. =p
Yesterday Esther fetches me to hospital. I felt so guilty because she has to wait for me. MRI scan is scary for me. I have to go in to the machine. I need to lie down on the bed. Then those people explaining this and that to me. They are very polite to me too maybe due to I am a LITTLE KID for them. =.=” Then there’s a guy hand me a headphone to wear on. One of the lady told me that because the process is very noisy so I better wear it. The guy told me that it is radio. I feel so happy because I can listen to radio. =) Then I asked them how long is the duration inside that thingy since Esther is alone outside waiting for me. What if I will be in there for 3 hours? Then Esther will be outside for 3 hours. -.- The guy said “Kalau you baik-baik tak gerak-gerak, 30 minit lah. Kalau tak baik-baik, 40 minit.” I was like “sorry Esther” =)
Then I went in that MRI machine. SO scary. I was not allowed to move and on my left hand there’s a thing for me to press incase I feel not right. It’s a bell. I feel like pressing it a few times because I am bored. =p I almost press it when the radio start. -.- Scared me. I am so scared! They lady say want me to listen to the radio so that I won’t hear the noisy sound. But, the radio is very soft! I can’t even hear clearly and the process is so LOUD! Worst case of all, it’s malay song. I don’t discriminate malay songs. Just that it’s too rock. Why not put Siti Nurhaliza songs? Aiyoyo.. hehe.. Suddenly, when I made my decision to sleep, everything stop. What happen? They say you are done. So fast? How long I’ve been in there? “You baik-baik, tak gerak, jadi 25 minit ade la.” -.-
“Macam –mana mau gerak? Inside so space-less. Anyway, everything ended earlier than expected. I wanted go for a check up for H1N1 but I afraid Esther need to wait again. So I did not check. I hope I am okay. Okay?! People, don’t come near me. I am really very sick.
Oh ya, my HR manager going to Australia. Hope she have a nice trip. MS. WONG, ENJOY YOUR TRIP… =)
Wednesday, August 5
SIck - Again?!
I hate to be sick. I am so weak now. Yesterday I took MC again. I don’t want to but I have no strength to work. The day before, I went to work. I knew that my throat is started to get itchy symptoms. My head was getting heavy, a little cough, my eyes were tired. I told my HR manager that I might go to see the doctor next day. She says why not I go on the same day after work so that I won’t affect my work the next day. Therefore, I dragged myself to the Clinic Mediviron. A 5 minutes walk from my work place. I feel extremely not well. I waited for around 20 minutes for my turn. When it’s my turn, I went in, sit, look at the doctor. WAIT, why this doctor so old? He is not the same guy I came last week. Anyway, I let him examine me. Old man is old man. He does not trust the high-tech facilities. He took the don’t-know-what thingy to put near my ear to check for fever. He says it’s terrible. That machine does not really work. He is right. Because that thingy says I am not fever. So the doctor took out his wallet and took don’t-know-what thingy to put on my forehead to measure my fever and YES, I am FEVER!! Then, he goes. Started to grumble this and grumble that. Then he asked me a few questions that he said
“Girl, I think you better go to the hospital.”
I chuckled.
“Hey girl, it is better to go to the hospital.”
I just nod my head.
Then he asked “Flu?”
“Just now a little but now no, I think”
“GIRL, don’t say now no. You still need to eat the medicine. Don’t skip it.”
“ER…. Okay.”
“I will let you to rest. I give you MC. You want?”
“Er.. Can you give first? If I am alright then, I better go to work.”
“No No. You want then only I give. If not later your boss will laugh at me.”
“Huh? Okay then. I will take rest.”
What a NICE doctor.
Actually I don’t really want to take MC since I took last Friday and this coming Thursday I am going to MRI scan.
However, I took it already larrr.. That night I took the medicine and rest. It is a critical night. I was really sick. I feel like the body is not mine anymore. Difficult to breathe and so on. The next day, I woke up and wanted to go to work. But my body is too weak and also, no voice. So sad..
O’ Lord I pray that you will heal me fast.. AMEN
I’ve been easily get sick these few months. I am so numb with all the medicines I took. Whether it is for my back, my this my that till I really feel numb. YES! NUMB!
Tomorrow I will be going for the MRI scan and maybe go for H1N1 test to ensure I am okay since my facebook comments scare me today. I better go for the check up. Wish me lucks people! =)
“Girl, I think you better go to the hospital.”
I chuckled.
“Hey girl, it is better to go to the hospital.”
I just nod my head.
Then he asked “Flu?”
“Just now a little but now no, I think”
“GIRL, don’t say now no. You still need to eat the medicine. Don’t skip it.”
“ER…. Okay.”
“I will let you to rest. I give you MC. You want?”
“Er.. Can you give first? If I am alright then, I better go to work.”
“No No. You want then only I give. If not later your boss will laugh at me.”
“Huh? Okay then. I will take rest.”
What a NICE doctor.
Actually I don’t really want to take MC since I took last Friday and this coming Thursday I am going to MRI scan.
However, I took it already larrr.. That night I took the medicine and rest. It is a critical night. I was really sick. I feel like the body is not mine anymore. Difficult to breathe and so on. The next day, I woke up and wanted to go to work. But my body is too weak and also, no voice. So sad..
O’ Lord I pray that you will heal me fast.. AMEN
I’ve been easily get sick these few months. I am so numb with all the medicines I took. Whether it is for my back, my this my that till I really feel numb. YES! NUMB!
Tomorrow I will be going for the MRI scan and maybe go for H1N1 test to ensure I am okay since my facebook comments scare me today. I better go for the check up. Wish me lucks people! =)
Monday, August 3
Sunday
I am sick – again. I never know the feeling of food poisoning in my life. I heard people said its terrible, painful, and all sorts of things. What I thought is just stomach pain, vomiting and that’s all. Haha. You are so wrong SHERINA!!
I was food poisoned on Thursday. *cries* It hurts me lots. The feelings are indescribable. I thought the whole intestine, stomach, kidneys will come out. It feels like its going to explode anytime. It is so TERRIBLE. Anyway, thank God for immediate healing. Now I am okay BUT I started to cough yesterday night. *cries – again* Sad case right? The throat is itch now. *angry*
Anyway, yesterday was CBC anniversary. We went to Civic Center * if I am not mistaken*. Then few of us headed to NEW PARIS for lunch with Kim’s family. *Thanks Uncle Kim*. After the lunch, we went to SUNWAY PYRAMID. I was protected by FOUR bodyguards. *hehe* 1 girl 4 boys. 2 infront 2 behind. Why always I am the only girl? Lolz. We went “hang kai” till 3.30 p.m. Feel so happy. Cause very long no “hang kai” le. Too bad Elisa and Ying Yi was not there. *T.T*
I was food poisoned on Thursday. *cries* It hurts me lots. The feelings are indescribable. I thought the whole intestine, stomach, kidneys will come out. It feels like its going to explode anytime. It is so TERRIBLE. Anyway, thank God for immediate healing. Now I am okay BUT I started to cough yesterday night. *cries – again* Sad case right? The throat is itch now. *angry*
Anyway, yesterday was CBC anniversary. We went to Civic Center * if I am not mistaken*. Then few of us headed to NEW PARIS for lunch with Kim’s family. *Thanks Uncle Kim*. After the lunch, we went to SUNWAY PYRAMID. I was protected by FOUR bodyguards. *hehe* 1 girl 4 boys. 2 infront 2 behind. Why always I am the only girl? Lolz. We went “hang kai” till 3.30 p.m. Feel so happy. Cause very long no “hang kai” le. Too bad Elisa and Ying Yi was not there. *T.T*
Tuesday, July 28
Sleep, I need
Okay, I am still very blur now although its already 6.00 p.m. soon. I am still not awake. I am so sleepy till I really can sleep if there's a bed beside me. I woke up at 8.00 a.m. today but due to I do not have a GOOD sleep yesterday with ALL stuff in my head and PEOPLE around me so I can't sleep well. I hope I can have one good sleep tonight. So I am telling myself.
-SHERINA-
Please sleep after you get bath.. The latest is 11.00 o'clock after work and food and bath! No later than that! So that you sleep, PEOPLE also sleep. =p
Good night, ◊†·.·´¯`·.·BC·.·´¯`·.·ShêRíŇĂ·.·´¯`·.·BB·.·´¯`·.·†◊
<3
-SHERINA-
Please sleep after you get bath.. The latest is 11.00 o'clock after work and food and bath! No later than that! So that you sleep, PEOPLE also sleep. =p
Good night, ◊†·.·´¯`·.·BC·.·´¯`·.·ShêRíŇĂ·.·´¯`·.·BB·.·´¯`·.·†◊
<3
Hero Crow!
I saw a dead crow today. It is so awful to see it. Nearby that dead crow there is another crow. That crow looks very sad. I think it must be that crow spouse. T.T I can imagine the situation is like that.
IMAGINATION:
Crow A: Darling, where we want to go for food tonight?
Crow B: Honey, wherever you want I will follow.
Crow A: Darling, you are so good to me
Crow B: Honey, because I am your darling mar..
Crow A & Crow B fly together to find some food. Suddenly, when they want to land on the ground there is car driving very fast and almost knock down Crow A but Crow B quickly push Crow A aside and “BANG”… There goes Crow B..
So sad.. No wonder Crow A looks so sad just now.
Sorry for crapping today but I do really saw the crow and the another one looks so SAD!
IMAGINATION:
Crow A: Darling, where we want to go for food tonight?
Crow B: Honey, wherever you want I will follow.
Crow A: Darling, you are so good to me
Crow B: Honey, because I am your darling mar..
Crow A & Crow B fly together to find some food. Suddenly, when they want to land on the ground there is car driving very fast and almost knock down Crow A but Crow B quickly push Crow A aside and “BANG”… There goes Crow B..
So sad.. No wonder Crow A looks so sad just now.
Sorry for crapping today but I do really saw the crow and the another one looks so SAD!
Monday, July 27
Saturday
The voice I longed to hear,
The gentleness I long to see,
The way I want you to be,
At last all you’ve given to me.
What can I say? I am happy. Yeepee Yeepee. It has been a long time since I am crazy again. However, it just a long lost normal feelings that I found back. Nothing more than that! =)
The gentleness I long to see,
The way I want you to be,
At last all you’ve given to me.
What can I say? I am happy. Yeepee Yeepee. It has been a long time since I am crazy again. However, it just a long lost normal feelings that I found back. Nothing more than that! =)
Saturday, July 25
The treasures..
Memory that I''ll never forget.
If one day I am not here, remember one thing. I love you guys. If I am gone one day, I will try to remember all these memories that you guys gave me
Friday, July 24
I'm also a human being
I’m back to blogging although I said I will hiatus for few months but I want to come back and be myself. What am I saying? BLUR!
I learned a very important lesson today! That is DO NOT EAT DIM SUM FOR LUNCH especially a BIG eater like me.
Our gang was a little bit blurred today. We were in the car and do not know where to head for lunch. We do not want to go for PAN MEE again since we were like eating Pan Mee for everyday last few weeks. Who suggest go Dim Sum?! T.T
Since all of us got to budget in everything, so we eat a little only. Oh yea, they are all my colleagues. Poor 6 fellows. WE ate almost for 50 bugs and quite full on that time. However, my tummy started to drum inside now! So sad.
I really got to Thank God because these few days because I got these people that are funny. Jason Phan, Jenny Hoo, Winnie, Christine, Ms Hong and so on. =)
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Our company is having a steamboat session tonight at Sunway. I wanted to go. I told my mom I’m not going cell a few days ago. I told her I’m going for steamboat. However, I changed my mind yesterday and told her I go cell group. Today, I wanted to change my mind to go for steamboat. I don’t want go cell but Mommy is angry and say GO CELL GROUP! She don’t even allowed me to go for KTV session with my colleague on Wednesday! Why!? Why?! I want go with them. She says this is not a place suitable for me to go. Its not like what you think mommy. Anyway, I try to change her mind. =) I love mommy – my love. I know she too worry bout me. Mother is like that!
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I am so random today. I feel so blank at times. My mind is like full with question mark. Randomly, I picked up the phone and call Janice (CBC Office). Just feel like calling her. Do not know why. Then, randomly I mess my table and still leave it like that. I don’t know what I am doing. I was blogging, facebook-ing, msn-ing, listening to almost few hundreds of songs and don’t feel like it. What am I saying?! I have no idea. Maybe I wanted to talk to someone to release out all my feelings but yet I can’t find anyone. I am all alone.
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These few days has been a tough days for me to think properly. I receive several calls, several messages that I feel tired with. I’ve been too harsh on Monday but I just can’t think of anything better way for all this mess that I created. It hurts me lots to hurt people yet I got to do it and… ANYWAY, Sherina! Just do what you doing! Don’t even think of anything like what the KING says to you He is RIGHT! . =x
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However, does anyone really care for my feelings? Does everyone really think of me?
I'm also a human being!!!
I learned a very important lesson today! That is DO NOT EAT DIM SUM FOR LUNCH especially a BIG eater like me.
Our gang was a little bit blurred today. We were in the car and do not know where to head for lunch. We do not want to go for PAN MEE again since we were like eating Pan Mee for everyday last few weeks. Who suggest go Dim Sum?! T.T
Since all of us got to budget in everything, so we eat a little only. Oh yea, they are all my colleagues. Poor 6 fellows. WE ate almost for 50 bugs and quite full on that time. However, my tummy started to drum inside now! So sad.
I really got to Thank God because these few days because I got these people that are funny. Jason Phan, Jenny Hoo, Winnie, Christine, Ms Hong and so on. =)
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Our company is having a steamboat session tonight at Sunway. I wanted to go. I told my mom I’m not going cell a few days ago. I told her I’m going for steamboat. However, I changed my mind yesterday and told her I go cell group. Today, I wanted to change my mind to go for steamboat. I don’t want go cell but Mommy is angry and say GO CELL GROUP! She don’t even allowed me to go for KTV session with my colleague on Wednesday! Why!? Why?! I want go with them. She says this is not a place suitable for me to go. Its not like what you think mommy. Anyway, I try to change her mind. =) I love mommy – my love. I know she too worry bout me. Mother is like that!
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I am so random today. I feel so blank at times. My mind is like full with question mark. Randomly, I picked up the phone and call Janice (CBC Office). Just feel like calling her. Do not know why. Then, randomly I mess my table and still leave it like that. I don’t know what I am doing. I was blogging, facebook-ing, msn-ing, listening to almost few hundreds of songs and don’t feel like it. What am I saying?! I have no idea. Maybe I wanted to talk to someone to release out all my feelings but yet I can’t find anyone. I am all alone.
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These few days has been a tough days for me to think properly. I receive several calls, several messages that I feel tired with. I’ve been too harsh on Monday but I just can’t think of anything better way for all this mess that I created. It hurts me lots to hurt people yet I got to do it and… ANYWAY, Sherina! Just do what you doing! Don’t even think of anything like what the KING says to you He is RIGHT! . =x
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However, does anyone really care for my feelings? Does everyone really think of me?
I'm also a human being!!!
Saturday, July 4
Hiatus
Hi people! =)
I might not be blogging for some time for all my blogs! =) Until… Maybe… End of November…
Its all depends. I need to concentrate on my work now and also other things. So people. BYE BYE! =)
Can always tag me in the chatbox! I will reply! =) SAYONARA
I might not be blogging for some time for all my blogs! =) Until… Maybe… End of November…
Its all depends. I need to concentrate on my work now and also other things. So people. BYE BYE! =)
Can always tag me in the chatbox! I will reply! =) SAYONARA
Thursday, July 2
Letter to those important friends
I think I am not a good friend. Perhaps, I am not a friend at all. From schooling days till now, I always neglect those friends that are around me. I know how I behave last time. I know how bad I am to all the friends around me. Maybe due to there are lots of problems with me so I treat them like that. However, it should not be the reasons. Friends are something very precious and we should treasure them for our whole life. No matter what is going on, friends is still friends. Friends are forever. “Friends are friends forever”.
I should really apologize for those who I have hurt before especially in my secondary time. I really have neglected those friends. I am a selfish person. I always think of myself – not them. I always think that how bad they treat me but I never think of how bad I am. I am so sorry.
A letter to a true friend.
Dear Joanna,
I know how much I hurt you before. I am not a good friend. However, you never leave me when I am in troubles and always support me. You always being beside me especially in tough times. I never think of the good things you do. I always feel everyone is bad. Everyone hates me. I know you don’t. You did not record all my wrong doings. You still treat me as a friend. I remember you are the only one who raises your hand when teacher ask “Who is Sherina close friend?” Thank you so much for being a friend.
I feel so bad that I forgotten to wish you. I know its kind of late now. At least I still wish right? =) That day my phone out of credit. I wanted to wish you the next day once I reload but as you know; I was busy with the performance, event in Tropicana City Mall, and you know I was “a little bit” busy with chasing “someone” news. I know it should not be the reasons. So, it’s my fault. =p
Okay, Liew Kim Foong, Joanna
It’s great to know you this friend who is OLDER than me but looks SMALLER than me.
Happy Birthday to you,
You are born in a zoo,
You live with the guinea pig,
And you look like one too!
I should say.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY
Cute eh? GUINEA PIG cute right? Just like the one Eng Yew gave you. Anyway, I hope we will have more times together. Hope we will still keep in contact! Remember! When you and Eng Yew tie the knot, invite me yea! I hope is soon. =)
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Another letter to another friend
Dear Winnie Hoon Hui-Nie (Class monitor)
Winnie, you look very tough outside but I know you are not in the inside. I hope you will be strong for no matter is happening and going to happen. I know you are happy-go-lucky person that always make us so happy. As a monitor, you do it very great last time. No one can replace a monitor like you. At first, we always say bad things about you. However, after knowing you, you are good actually. Sorry for being so bad.
Happy belated birthday to you too. I really don’t know when your birthday is. I am so sorry. I hope you had a great birthday and I actually know you did. I’m not sure whether you will be reading this or not but just want to wish you.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DARLING..
Muacks muacks!
^Hugs^
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Signed off
I should really apologize for those who I have hurt before especially in my secondary time. I really have neglected those friends. I am a selfish person. I always think of myself – not them. I always think that how bad they treat me but I never think of how bad I am. I am so sorry.
A letter to a true friend.
Dear Joanna,
I know how much I hurt you before. I am not a good friend. However, you never leave me when I am in troubles and always support me. You always being beside me especially in tough times. I never think of the good things you do. I always feel everyone is bad. Everyone hates me. I know you don’t. You did not record all my wrong doings. You still treat me as a friend. I remember you are the only one who raises your hand when teacher ask “Who is Sherina close friend?” Thank you so much for being a friend.
I feel so bad that I forgotten to wish you. I know its kind of late now. At least I still wish right? =) That day my phone out of credit. I wanted to wish you the next day once I reload but as you know; I was busy with the performance, event in Tropicana City Mall, and you know I was “a little bit” busy with chasing “someone” news. I know it should not be the reasons. So, it’s my fault. =p
Okay, Liew Kim Foong, Joanna
It’s great to know you this friend who is OLDER than me but looks SMALLER than me.
Happy Birthday to you,
You are born in a zoo,
You live with the guinea pig,
And you look like one too!
I should say.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY
Cute eh? GUINEA PIG cute right? Just like the one Eng Yew gave you. Anyway, I hope we will have more times together. Hope we will still keep in contact! Remember! When you and Eng Yew tie the knot, invite me yea! I hope is soon. =)
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Another letter to another friend
Dear Winnie Hoon Hui-Nie (Class monitor)
Winnie, you look very tough outside but I know you are not in the inside. I hope you will be strong for no matter is happening and going to happen. I know you are happy-go-lucky person that always make us so happy. As a monitor, you do it very great last time. No one can replace a monitor like you. At first, we always say bad things about you. However, after knowing you, you are good actually. Sorry for being so bad.
Happy belated birthday to you too. I really don’t know when your birthday is. I am so sorry. I hope you had a great birthday and I actually know you did. I’m not sure whether you will be reading this or not but just want to wish you.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DARLING..
Muacks muacks!
^Hugs^
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Signed off
Tuesday, June 30
A lesson I learned
You might be very healthy this minute but you might not breathe in the next minute.
My mom always tells me that life is unpredictable. She says that she might be talking to me this minute but, maybe, the next minute, she won’t be here anymore. Every time she says this to me, I can feel that my heart feels the pain. Who won’t? You know what I always God to do from last time when I am very young. I am very selfish person. I asked God not to let my mom die first. I want to be the one to die first. For I know I can’t live without my mom. She is the only one I have in my life. I rather die first. Sometimes, I hope I can die immediately better than to lose my mom. I know I am so selfish.
Actually what will happen to my mom if she loses me? It will be the same thing for her. She loves me way too much. She will be very sad too. She is so lonely after all and if one day I “go” first, I don’t know what will happen to her. But what can we do? Then I think of something. What if we die together? I think is a best way after all because if I “go” first, she will be very sad. If she “go” first, I will be very sad. So die together is best way for I only have her and she only has me. I am so foolish right? No matter what, we can’t control. It’s just God the one who can control everything. No matter how pain we are, we still need to take it.
Just like Michael Jackson passed away, I keep on thinking, why so suddenly? Why take his life when he just 50 and his upcoming concert are just in next month? Some people says he look healthy when they meet him, but still, now, he is already gone. That’s why life is really unpredictable. We never know what is going to happen in the next minute. I’ve been chasing his news everyday. Although he had gone but there are still ‘spectacular’ news about him. Although it is such a waste that the King of Pop is no longer in this world, but I think it is better for now. He can really have peace. No more problems, no more worried, no need to think to solve any problem. I felt pity with his three little children. They lost their father in a young age. However, they still need to face it and overcome it.
Here, I give my deepest condolence to the Jackson’s family. (Although I don’t know them and they don’t know me.)
It’s a lesson for me to learn. No matter what happens, I got to take it no matter how pain it is. God is the one in control. Death is not bad actually. Death brings peace too. But this not means going to commit suicide or whatsoever. But die naturally. God’s planning. Sometimes dieing is better than suffer in this world. Dieing also means you have accomplished your mission in earth and its time to go somewhere! *haha* (my theory la -not real de)
So everyone, use your day wisely. Do not do something will regret you and do not just sit there and day dreaming. What you want to do, do it while you can. You will never know what you will be in the next minute. It will be such a waste if you just think and do no action.
I think these few days I talked to much bout Michael Jackson. *hehe*
Yesterday, someone ask me “So you like Michael Jackson already. What bout Lee Hom?”
I can tell you that Michael Jackson is more talented. How he dance, how he sing. No one can replace him. As for Lee Hom, always my number one too! So I got two Number ONE!! =) Oh ya, I got 3 Number ONE in my heart actually..
Signed off - - - -
My mom always tells me that life is unpredictable. She says that she might be talking to me this minute but, maybe, the next minute, she won’t be here anymore. Every time she says this to me, I can feel that my heart feels the pain. Who won’t? You know what I always God to do from last time when I am very young. I am very selfish person. I asked God not to let my mom die first. I want to be the one to die first. For I know I can’t live without my mom. She is the only one I have in my life. I rather die first. Sometimes, I hope I can die immediately better than to lose my mom. I know I am so selfish.
Actually what will happen to my mom if she loses me? It will be the same thing for her. She loves me way too much. She will be very sad too. She is so lonely after all and if one day I “go” first, I don’t know what will happen to her. But what can we do? Then I think of something. What if we die together? I think is a best way after all because if I “go” first, she will be very sad. If she “go” first, I will be very sad. So die together is best way for I only have her and she only has me. I am so foolish right? No matter what, we can’t control. It’s just God the one who can control everything. No matter how pain we are, we still need to take it.
Just like Michael Jackson passed away, I keep on thinking, why so suddenly? Why take his life when he just 50 and his upcoming concert are just in next month? Some people says he look healthy when they meet him, but still, now, he is already gone. That’s why life is really unpredictable. We never know what is going to happen in the next minute. I’ve been chasing his news everyday. Although he had gone but there are still ‘spectacular’ news about him. Although it is such a waste that the King of Pop is no longer in this world, but I think it is better for now. He can really have peace. No more problems, no more worried, no need to think to solve any problem. I felt pity with his three little children. They lost their father in a young age. However, they still need to face it and overcome it.
Here, I give my deepest condolence to the Jackson’s family. (Although I don’t know them and they don’t know me.)
It’s a lesson for me to learn. No matter what happens, I got to take it no matter how pain it is. God is the one in control. Death is not bad actually. Death brings peace too. But this not means going to commit suicide or whatsoever. But die naturally. God’s planning. Sometimes dieing is better than suffer in this world. Dieing also means you have accomplished your mission in earth and its time to go somewhere! *haha* (my theory la -not real de)
So everyone, use your day wisely. Do not do something will regret you and do not just sit there and day dreaming. What you want to do, do it while you can. You will never know what you will be in the next minute. It will be such a waste if you just think and do no action.
I think these few days I talked to much bout Michael Jackson. *hehe*
Yesterday, someone ask me “So you like Michael Jackson already. What bout Lee Hom?”
I can tell you that Michael Jackson is more talented. How he dance, how he sing. No one can replace him. As for Lee Hom, always my number one too! So I got two Number ONE!! =) Oh ya, I got 3 Number ONE in my heart actually..
Signed off - - - -
Monday, June 29
28.06.09
It's 12.25a.m. now and I am still online. I am looking for Michael Jackson songs and videos. I really still can't believe Michael Jackson no longer in this world. Yesterday night, I watch his concert. I think is a very long time ago concert. I am stunned with the crowd. It looks like more than million crowds there. Everyone is crazy for him. I, myself, really very admired how he dance. His leg, his body, and so on. I just feel it such a waste he is no longer here. it such a waste that his 50 concert is starting soon but he can't perform. I know that if he still alive, it will be a blast! He is a great performer. He got his style. His moonwalk is really NICE! I hope that the tv will show morenews bout him! I really want to see!
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Anyway, this 2 days was in Tropicana City Mall performing. The songs that I sing is not so nice. I don't know why I can't sing properly. I feel so sad! I am not a good singer. haiz. T.T
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miss you...
Sunday, June 28
MJ!
I still can’t believe Michael Jackson passed away. It’s such a waste. His next 50 concert is around the corner! I really like him from I am young although there are lot of his negative news but still I think he is very talented in singing as well as dancing. I am watching his concert now. Although I am so tired but I am not gonna miss this concert man! Its so YENG!!
Friday, June 26
Sleepy sherina -as always
“Sherina, you look sleepy” He said.
Yesterday, I have no idea what happen with my head! I think I got a little problem with it. I set my alarm clock at 7.00 a.m. the night before. On that very day when the alarm rang, I change it to 7.30 a.m. and set another alarm at 8.01 a.m., and then I continue my sleep. However, nothing came out from my alarm. There are only 2 reasons – 1 – the alarm clock got problem; that means my phone got problem. 2 – I am a pig till I can’t hear the alarm clock. So what do you think the reason is? I would say is number 1 to make myself better! =) Anyway, I woke up at 8.40 a.m. and I rush like crazy to the toilet, changed, tidy-up my messy hair, take my stuff and RUN out from the house and I must really say this THANK GOD THERE IS A BUS WAITING FOR ME! So end up I reach office around 9.03 a.m. Supposedly I am late for 3 minutes but we started to count the lateness after 9.05 a.m. So I am not LATE! However, my eyes wanted to close for every second but due to its payroll time, I am extremely busy and I got to OPEN MY EYES WIDELY.
Yesterday night, I see my alarm at 7.00 a.m. again and another at 8.00 a.m. So today the alarm rang at 7.00 a.m. and I continue my sleep till 8.00 a.m. another came. I stop it and changed it to 8.15 a.m. However, my darling calls me at 8.08 a.m. and I am awake!
“Sherina, you awake?” Darling says
“I should by now.” I say.
I am really extremely very tired! Even today my eyes are dropping! Yesterday night I did not online but still I slept quite late! Nowadays, I could not really sleep early. Whether it is because I am working or because I just can’t sleep! My goodness! What is happening to me! My mom really afraid that one day I will faint. I really will if I continue to be like that. I really need a day off! These coming 3 days will be very busy for me as the event is coming up. My mom is going to kill me!
Although it will be very tiring for this few days, but I will do all I can to help those who in needs. What I am worried now is the singing. We haven’t’ gone through all the new songs that we are performing this Sunday. We only practice all the Saturday ones! So I hope I will be able to sing properly on that day. Oh ya, I will be singing LEE HOM SONGS. They will be like “UH? LEE HOM? A GIRL?” Haha
Oh ya, for those who are sick, I hope you guys will recover soon. =)
Yesterday, I have no idea what happen with my head! I think I got a little problem with it. I set my alarm clock at 7.00 a.m. the night before. On that very day when the alarm rang, I change it to 7.30 a.m. and set another alarm at 8.01 a.m., and then I continue my sleep. However, nothing came out from my alarm. There are only 2 reasons – 1 – the alarm clock got problem; that means my phone got problem. 2 – I am a pig till I can’t hear the alarm clock. So what do you think the reason is? I would say is number 1 to make myself better! =) Anyway, I woke up at 8.40 a.m. and I rush like crazy to the toilet, changed, tidy-up my messy hair, take my stuff and RUN out from the house and I must really say this THANK GOD THERE IS A BUS WAITING FOR ME! So end up I reach office around 9.03 a.m. Supposedly I am late for 3 minutes but we started to count the lateness after 9.05 a.m. So I am not LATE! However, my eyes wanted to close for every second but due to its payroll time, I am extremely busy and I got to OPEN MY EYES WIDELY.
Yesterday night, I see my alarm at 7.00 a.m. again and another at 8.00 a.m. So today the alarm rang at 7.00 a.m. and I continue my sleep till 8.00 a.m. another came. I stop it and changed it to 8.15 a.m. However, my darling calls me at 8.08 a.m. and I am awake!
“Sherina, you awake?” Darling says
“I should by now.” I say.
I am really extremely very tired! Even today my eyes are dropping! Yesterday night I did not online but still I slept quite late! Nowadays, I could not really sleep early. Whether it is because I am working or because I just can’t sleep! My goodness! What is happening to me! My mom really afraid that one day I will faint. I really will if I continue to be like that. I really need a day off! These coming 3 days will be very busy for me as the event is coming up. My mom is going to kill me!
Although it will be very tiring for this few days, but I will do all I can to help those who in needs. What I am worried now is the singing. We haven’t’ gone through all the new songs that we are performing this Sunday. We only practice all the Saturday ones! So I hope I will be able to sing properly on that day. Oh ya, I will be singing LEE HOM SONGS. They will be like “UH? LEE HOM? A GIRL?” Haha
Oh ya, for those who are sick, I hope you guys will recover soon. =)
Wednesday, June 24
Gastric day!
It has been a very long time since I got a gastric. I remembered a few years back when I am still staying at Puteri 10, there are few months when the clock strike 7.00 p.m. everyday, my stomach will pain till I can’t move. I remember Wee Ric brought me to see doctor and bought me a bottle or two of apple juice that time. It has been a long time and I forgotten how pain is it. However, today I experience it once again. The feeling is just the same like last time. I really feel like crying in my office today. It almost kills me! All of this is because I did not eat for more than 24 hours! Yesterday lunch I took McD and I don’t feel eating actually. Yesterday night in bumble bee I was given “roti bakar” but I did not finish it. I think I just give a bite. Today whole day I did not put anything in my mouth except a couple of cups of milo. I really do not have any appetite to eat. Now, this leads me to the painfulness.
What makes me worst?
I am going to sing a song with darling CL this Sunday. I translated the lyrics and I really have no idea what to say. Like Gab say, I got to move on. So I will sing as loud as I can especially that song!!!!
The song name is wo zhi dao - BY2
What makes me worst?
I am going to sing a song with darling CL this Sunday. I translated the lyrics and I really have no idea what to say. Like Gab say, I got to move on. So I will sing as loud as I can especially that song!!!!
The song name is wo zhi dao - BY2
Tuesday, June 23
Monday, June 22
A day with hope!
Walking along the long road through the cool wind makes me feel refreshing today. It has been a long time since I can feel the air is cooling rather than the previous few weeks that it is always has been hot and polluted. The cool air makes me feel better after a day with so many misunderstandings around, frustrated, tired, wounded knees, a fall with wet jeans and shirt, bad vocal, back pain, walking with a not-function able shoes, headache and so on. What a bad Sunday I had?! One thing that I think is great for yesterday whole day is the worship. It is a great worship; unexpectedly.
Since today is a Monday and I had a great start, I would leave all the things behind and forget about everything that had and has happened and happening in my life. I would not think about anything else – for now. I would not care anyone for thinking who I am anymore. I am a little bit too tired all over this matter. It’s always been my fault and always it will relate to my background. However, I will just care not this small matter that always stressed me out. Everything is over now. A brand new start is starting now.
Thanks JG for being so kind of you for doing me a favor. Although I am not sure you succeed to help me or not but you say you will try your best. Besides, thanks for helping me to explain what is really going on and I hope you will always remind me to not to do something that I should not do for I am a soft-hearted person like E says although I am not sure whether I am soft-hearted like E says. Anyway, you don’t really hate me after all. Thanks for saying I am not “that kind of girl”. =) We are the psychologist. =)
Here, I would like to say that I prefer to be “alone”. It is not the right time for anything for I am going to study soon (if possible). I still want to enjoy my “lonely” life.If God say it is the right time to not be “lonely” then it’s a different story. For now, I want to focus on work and my new plan. I just want everyone to know that I prefer this way better than anything else.
Oh ya, I will make myself to wake up earlier every morning to read the bible. I think this is the most important thing for me now! No more late sleep and no more wakes late. =)
ONE IMPORTANT NOTE: This is just a thought of me when I walking down the road today morning. I hope no offence to anyone here. Thanks.
Since today is a Monday and I had a great start, I would leave all the things behind and forget about everything that had and has happened and happening in my life. I would not think about anything else – for now. I would not care anyone for thinking who I am anymore. I am a little bit too tired all over this matter. It’s always been my fault and always it will relate to my background. However, I will just care not this small matter that always stressed me out. Everything is over now. A brand new start is starting now.
Thanks JG for being so kind of you for doing me a favor. Although I am not sure you succeed to help me or not but you say you will try your best. Besides, thanks for helping me to explain what is really going on and I hope you will always remind me to not to do something that I should not do for I am a soft-hearted person like E says although I am not sure whether I am soft-hearted like E says. Anyway, you don’t really hate me after all. Thanks for saying I am not “that kind of girl”. =) We are the psychologist. =)
Here, I would like to say that I prefer to be “alone”. It is not the right time for anything for I am going to study soon (if possible). I still want to enjoy my “lonely” life.If God say it is the right time to not be “lonely” then it’s a different story. For now, I want to focus on work and my new plan. I just want everyone to know that I prefer this way better than anything else.
Oh ya, I will make myself to wake up earlier every morning to read the bible. I think this is the most important thing for me now! No more late sleep and no more wakes late. =)
ONE IMPORTANT NOTE: This is just a thought of me when I walking down the road today morning. I hope no offence to anyone here. Thanks.
Saturday, June 20
A date for tomorrow
Looking forward for the date tomorrow. =) Introduce by Gabriel.
Not like what you think okay! Completely 2 different thing..
I am not desperate kays? ;)
Not like what you think okay! Completely 2 different thing..
I am not desperate kays? ;)
Friday, June 19
Thursday, June 18
The only thing
"What will happen to the youth one day?" I always ask myself.
Today, I chat with one of the aunties. She says that one day there will be no more youth. Now I am wondering whether it will happen or not. I am afraid now for I am convince with what she said.
What can I do now?
Like I said to one of my friend. I just can pray! That's what I can do for now.
p/s: Having major headache. Pain!
Today, I chat with one of the aunties. She says that one day there will be no more youth. Now I am wondering whether it will happen or not. I am afraid now for I am convince with what she said.
What can I do now?
Like I said to one of my friend. I just can pray! That's what I can do for now.
p/s: Having major headache. Pain!
Tuesday, June 16
It just a dream, luckily
Lying down on green pasture, looking at the blue sky, feel the rushing wind, fall asleep – how good is it? So relaxing.
Everything is perfect until I heard the sound of “moos”. Wait! Cows? I feel something is dripping on my face. I open my eyes and I saw the cow’s head in front of me; dripping saliva on my head! Ewww… I was awake now and realize that I am not lying on this grazing land alone but with a number of cows around me. It’s not a good dream for me. It’s a NIGHTMARE..
Especially with cows..
Everything is perfect until I heard the sound of “moos”. Wait! Cows? I feel something is dripping on my face. I open my eyes and I saw the cow’s head in front of me; dripping saliva on my head! Ewww… I was awake now and realize that I am not lying on this grazing land alone but with a number of cows around me. It’s not a good dream for me. It’s a NIGHTMARE..
Especially with cows..
Missing myself for you,
Friday, June 12
Nothing much today
Yesterday was working in bumble bee and some of the youth came for practices included Jason Loh. It was kind of fun when Ying Yi, Jason and me was playing guitar, singing and playing piano for S.H.E songs. Although I am a little bit headache on that time but I manage to forget about it. The power of craziness. =) We should have more jamming session next time where Jason Loh can come over and we can find some Chinese or English songs to play together. Oh ya, Jason Loh love “One Way” by Planet Shakers. Next time if we invite him to church, we got to sing “One Way”! =)
Anyway, I am still sick! It’s INFLUENZA. FLU FLU FLU! Medicine could not cure me. Don’t know why! I am so frustrated now. Especially with this running nose and headache!
Oh ya, 1 more important thing. That day my heart beats very fast. VERY FAST. I was about to sleep, suddenly my heart beats very fast. Feel so not comfortable on that time. It happens a few times already. My colleague says I don’t only need a back check up. I need a WHOLE BODY check up. From the head till the toe.
-Going cell tonight-
-Want to practice guitar-
-Want to be the first “girl” guitarist in church-
-Want to improve my singing skill-
-Want to get a boyfriend soon- just joking. =p
Anyway, I am still sick! It’s INFLUENZA. FLU FLU FLU! Medicine could not cure me. Don’t know why! I am so frustrated now. Especially with this running nose and headache!
Oh ya, 1 more important thing. That day my heart beats very fast. VERY FAST. I was about to sleep, suddenly my heart beats very fast. Feel so not comfortable on that time. It happens a few times already. My colleague says I don’t only need a back check up. I need a WHOLE BODY check up. From the head till the toe.
-Going cell tonight-
-Want to practice guitar-
-Want to be the first “girl” guitarist in church-
-Want to improve my singing skill-
-Want to get a boyfriend soon- just joking. =p
Thursday, June 11
I got tricked today?! =)
Today, I was working in me office and there is a “Singh” came. I thought he is one of our supplier or something so I let him in. He asked me whether my boss is in the office. I say no. Anyway if my boss is in, I don’t think I will tell him too. He started to say that I look cheerful and happy-go-lucky person. In my heart I was saying no matter what you say I don’t care. Don’t try to read me because I won’t believe. In my heart, I keep repeating Jesus name. In my mind, only God knows what happening in my life. He continues to tell me that I look lucky! Then he asked for my full name. I just say “Sherina”. He asked me to write my name on a piece of paper. I followed what he says. Then he gave me a paper and put on my palm. I just take it without knowing what it is. Then he asked me to give him a number from 1-5. I gave him number 3. He said if the paper that he gave me is 3 then I will be very lucky. However, if is 2 or 4 then I am so BAD LUCK. I opened the paper and its number 3. He say.. “God bless you” He says that I am lucky again. Then he opens his diary and asked me to put the paper in the diary. I followed. Then, he says… “Put some money of faith”. =.=’’ I took a note of 5 but before I open my wallet he say “Please put at least RM20” Super sweat! I told him I do not have such number of money although I did have. I told him I can’t give him so much! He says then gives him a little bit. I put my RM5 in his diary. He asked me to put RM10. I say no. I can’t. Then he says okay. However, he still says I will be lucky. He says that I look cheerful outside but I am full of sorrow inside. Then he left.
Those who read this might say I am so dumb. Why would I give him the RM5? Why not just chase him away from the office? Sometimes people have no choice that’s why they need to do this. I know most of them cheat people. Like today, he came in and his only motive is money. I know it so clearly but I still give him the money. After gave him the money most probably I won’t be taking my lunch or maybe take something lighter. People might think why?! Why I sacrifice myself for him? It’s easy. Bless him with the RM5. Maybe this RM5 can help him to do something. I don’t think other people will give him any money. He might no business for today. Maybe he has no money with him. Maybe this Rm5 can save his life. Who knows? When I saw him pass by my office door just now, in my heart, I prayed, “God, please bless this person.”
I think I wasted RM12-13 while I worked here. First time is the one who says his motor got problem. I gave him RM5. Second time is the lady who claims she is a Christian and selling bookmarks for the poor. I think I gave her a few Ringgits. This is the third time –RM5. I hope no one come in again to ask money from me. I know I will give. I am so soft-hearted.
Giving is better than receiving? Yes!
Oh ya.. He showed me his card, he is from India. His name is Gobind Singh something. But he is not the one you guys think. =)
Those who read this might say I am so dumb. Why would I give him the RM5? Why not just chase him away from the office? Sometimes people have no choice that’s why they need to do this. I know most of them cheat people. Like today, he came in and his only motive is money. I know it so clearly but I still give him the money. After gave him the money most probably I won’t be taking my lunch or maybe take something lighter. People might think why?! Why I sacrifice myself for him? It’s easy. Bless him with the RM5. Maybe this RM5 can help him to do something. I don’t think other people will give him any money. He might no business for today. Maybe he has no money with him. Maybe this Rm5 can save his life. Who knows? When I saw him pass by my office door just now, in my heart, I prayed, “God, please bless this person.”
I think I wasted RM12-13 while I worked here. First time is the one who says his motor got problem. I gave him RM5. Second time is the lady who claims she is a Christian and selling bookmarks for the poor. I think I gave her a few Ringgits. This is the third time –RM5. I hope no one come in again to ask money from me. I know I will give. I am so soft-hearted.
Giving is better than receiving? Yes!
Oh ya.. He showed me his card, he is from India. His name is Gobind Singh something. But he is not the one you guys think. =)
Tuesday, June 9
Special Someone
Yesterday night I am a little bit too hyper. I could not sleep. I wanted to sleep earlier but I just feel so energetic. I told this person who I smsed with, that I really could not sleep. I don’t know why. It might because I slept early in the previous day. This person who smsed with me asked me to hug my “shroom” and sleep or xxxxx. All of the sudden, I really feel sleepy. =)
Why am I posting this? Just too random. I just want you to know it is good to have you be my side. Happy, sad, or angry you will be there. Even sleepy times! Heh heh. Without you my life will miss some colors. Like a rainbow that has only 6 colors. Not perfect.
Although no one is perfect.. =p
Only God!
Anyway,
I am crapping now. I am so bored! Tonight back to Bumble Bee. There goes my week.
Tuesday: Bumble Bee
Wednesday: Worship Practice
Thursday: Bumble Bee
Friday: Cell Group
Saturday: Working + Bumble Bee.
Oh no! Now my routine is back! Lack of sleep and I am sure my flu will stick with me if I am so tired! Ish Ish Ish!
I need a rest.. Rest In Peace. Haha
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Why am I posting this? Just too random. I just want you to know it is good to have you be my side. Happy, sad, or angry you will be there. Even sleepy times! Heh heh. Without you my life will miss some colors. Like a rainbow that has only 6 colors. Not perfect.
Although no one is perfect.. =p
Only God!
Anyway,
I am crapping now. I am so bored! Tonight back to Bumble Bee. There goes my week.
Tuesday: Bumble Bee
Wednesday: Worship Practice
Thursday: Bumble Bee
Friday: Cell Group
Saturday: Working + Bumble Bee.
Oh no! Now my routine is back! Lack of sleep and I am sure my flu will stick with me if I am so tired! Ish Ish Ish!
I need a rest.. Rest In Peace. Haha
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06.06.2009 Picnic (Part 2)
I’ve been too emo nowadays, am I? I read back this few weeks post, I feel that I am once again fall in the pit where I always used to be. I better change or else all my readers are gone! xD
Let’s post something happy!
On
06.06.2009 the youth, ONEyouth, went to Hutan Lipur Lentang for a picnic. =) For your information, it is located in between Bentong and Genting. (I think so) It is SO far from Puchong. You got to pass by Genting if you want to go there. Far huh?! I know. My mom even ask me “What?! So far?! Why must you guys go picnic at somewhere so FAR.”
Anyway,…
We depart from our place after breakfast around 9.45a.m. I sit Gabriel’s car with Elisa and Chien Ling. First time I do not have any problem with long distance. I used to get car sick but that day I am so HEALTHY. =) The journey took around 2 hours to reach there due to jam and also waiting and go toilet. =.=” We reached there around 11 something and we start with a game. Splashing game. I know that game is a little bit too lame especially using that kind of umbrella, however, we do have fun! After the game, we eat some food. There are 20 people there but Elisa and Gabriel prepare more than that amount of Fried Mee. O.o Anyway, the mee is nice. Thanks sasa. =)
What I love the most was playing in the river. The water is so cold and so refreshing! I love it! However, I am so dumb. The first step I put in the river I fell. Ouch! My knee. Ouch.. So sad. Luckily there is someone beside me to support me. Thank you. But I am not sure who that is. I am so sorry. Please do let me know if you read this. =)
The river looks not clean but actually it is not dirty if you were in there. We “rendam” in the river for 2 hours I think. Hehe. We walked down the river then up again the sleep, lie down, and so much more. Oh ya, forgotten to ask Sheng Jian do the “u ga u ga”. =) He he.. Should took a picture of Sheng Jian lying.
What I can say for so far is, I love this trip. Hope more will come. And I would like to take this opportunity to say Thank You for those who came.
Thank You to:
1. Gabriel
2. Lai Ming
3. Jonathan (although he a little bit not so good because trying to over take Gab)
4. Uncle Chris
These are those who fetch all of us to the destination safely.
Thank You to:
1. Gabriel
2. Elisa
3. Lai Ming
4. Goh’s Family
5. and myself =p
These are those who prepared the food for all of us.
Thank You to:
1. Uncle Chris
2. Aunty Yeh Charn
3. Joel Goh
These are those who took care of our belongings when we were down there and took pictures of us.
Thank You to:
1. Lai Ming
2. Gabriel
3. Uncle Chris
4. Aunty Yeh Charn
5. Jonathan
6. Shirley
7. Sharon
8. Zhen Bi
9. Vivian
10. Jeriel
11. Joel Goh
12. Sheng Jian
13. Elisa
14. Sherina
15. Ying Yi
16. Joshua
17. Jason Loh
18. Michelle Loh
19. Rachel
20. Jasmine
Pictures will be upload soon after I get it. =)
Let’s post something happy!
On
06.06.2009 the youth, ONEyouth, went to Hutan Lipur Lentang for a picnic. =) For your information, it is located in between Bentong and Genting. (I think so) It is SO far from Puchong. You got to pass by Genting if you want to go there. Far huh?! I know. My mom even ask me “What?! So far?! Why must you guys go picnic at somewhere so FAR.”
Anyway,…
We depart from our place after breakfast around 9.45a.m. I sit Gabriel’s car with Elisa and Chien Ling. First time I do not have any problem with long distance. I used to get car sick but that day I am so HEALTHY. =) The journey took around 2 hours to reach there due to jam and also waiting and go toilet. =.=” We reached there around 11 something and we start with a game. Splashing game. I know that game is a little bit too lame especially using that kind of umbrella, however, we do have fun! After the game, we eat some food. There are 20 people there but Elisa and Gabriel prepare more than that amount of Fried Mee. O.o Anyway, the mee is nice. Thanks sasa. =)
What I love the most was playing in the river. The water is so cold and so refreshing! I love it! However, I am so dumb. The first step I put in the river I fell. Ouch! My knee. Ouch.. So sad. Luckily there is someone beside me to support me. Thank you. But I am not sure who that is. I am so sorry. Please do let me know if you read this. =)
The river looks not clean but actually it is not dirty if you were in there. We “rendam” in the river for 2 hours I think. Hehe. We walked down the river then up again the sleep, lie down, and so much more. Oh ya, forgotten to ask Sheng Jian do the “u ga u ga”. =) He he.. Should took a picture of Sheng Jian lying.
What I can say for so far is, I love this trip. Hope more will come. And I would like to take this opportunity to say Thank You for those who came.
Thank You to:
1. Gabriel
2. Lai Ming
3. Jonathan (although he a little bit not so good because trying to over take Gab)
4. Uncle Chris
These are those who fetch all of us to the destination safely.
Thank You to:
1. Gabriel
2. Elisa
3. Lai Ming
4. Goh’s Family
5. and myself =p
These are those who prepared the food for all of us.
Thank You to:
1. Uncle Chris
2. Aunty Yeh Charn
3. Joel Goh
These are those who took care of our belongings when we were down there and took pictures of us.
Thank You to:
1. Lai Ming
2. Gabriel
3. Uncle Chris
4. Aunty Yeh Charn
5. Jonathan
6. Shirley
7. Sharon
8. Zhen Bi
9. Vivian
10. Jeriel
11. Joel Goh
12. Sheng Jian
13. Elisa
14. Sherina
15. Ying Yi
16. Joshua
17. Jason Loh
18. Michelle Loh
19. Rachel
20. Jasmine
Pictures will be upload soon after I get it. =)
Monday, June 8
06.06.2009 - Saturday (Part 1)
We had picnic last Saturday. It was good actually. I am really happy because Chien Ling and Jason was there. It has been a long time since we went outing together! I hope we will meet more... Oh ya.. Thanks to darling for taking a picture of me~ I like it so much. =)
I like this so much. =)
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Thursday, June 4
Ponder!
I am sick. Yes I am sick again! having flu now. A bad one!
Today, one of the youth ask me; Do I blame God of my condition?
Actually I really ponder for a while and think whether do I blame God. I can't say totally no because sometimes I will say " Ish God why I am sick again?! Why my back pain again! Why this and that?
But, in the same time I do thank God for letting me sick. I am not insane okay?! I don't love to be sick but I just feel that everytime I fall sick, I will know that there are lot of people who still cares for me. I am not alone. They are with me. And also I can tell people how great is God for healing me. Although for now, my back is not okay yet, I still pray that God will heal me one day. I said this always.. Ask and you shall receive. Knock and the door will be open to you. And God will make a way when there seems to be no way.
I might fall badly but this is because I have to learn how to overcome! There is reason for everything. So I just surrender to Him..
Today, one of the youth ask me; Do I blame God of my condition?
Actually I really ponder for a while and think whether do I blame God. I can't say totally no because sometimes I will say " Ish God why I am sick again?! Why my back pain again! Why this and that?
But, in the same time I do thank God for letting me sick. I am not insane okay?! I don't love to be sick but I just feel that everytime I fall sick, I will know that there are lot of people who still cares for me. I am not alone. They are with me. And also I can tell people how great is God for healing me. Although for now, my back is not okay yet, I still pray that God will heal me one day. I said this always.. Ask and you shall receive. Knock and the door will be open to you. And God will make a way when there seems to be no way.
I might fall badly but this is because I have to learn how to overcome! There is reason for everything. So I just surrender to Him..
Wednesday, June 3
A little secrets of menuiq
I've been thinking too much lately,
Thinking of you and me,
I've been missing someone lately,
Someone that is important to me.
We are far from each other,
We can't be meeting for a period of time,
We will need to keep this feeling,
Until the time that we can meet again.
Tuesday, June 2
Its late now
I am here in my room again. =)
If you did not ask me to not reply you, I will not reply too because I’ve said that I won’t be a busybody again. I am tired of telling people this and that. I should now tell myself this and that. Everyone has a different way of thinking. I can’t force people to go my way and think my way. What I can do is to pray everyday to ask the Lord to make my mind set straight. Doing the right thing, heading the right path; all I submit to God to lead. I just hope God can show you the right way, the right path, the right mindset, and so on.
If you did not ask me to not reply you, I will not reply too because I’ve said that I won’t be a busybody again. I am tired of telling people this and that. I should now tell myself this and that. Everyone has a different way of thinking. I can’t force people to go my way and think my way. What I can do is to pray everyday to ask the Lord to make my mind set straight. Doing the right thing, heading the right path; all I submit to God to lead. I just hope God can show you the right way, the right path, the right mindset, and so on.
Sunday, May 31
Just a post from my room =p
Hello! I am here blogging in my room using laptop! Not mine. =) Internet also not mine. All different from different people!
Anyway, I was keying the database but end up using 3 hours to just key in 40 details. This is because discussing bout what song we are singing for next month. Wasted a lot of time. T.T
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Sometimes I would prefer to lock myself up from everyone else because I think no matter how close you and your friend or your family is there will be times where disagreements occurs. And, it always makes me feels not right. Not to say I want them to agree with me each time but at least understand my feelings and my way of thinking. They can always give their opinions to me but seems that they just shoot you without giving you any back door. I just feel so not right. I always try to help as much as I can but people always see me with different pairs of eyes. Let thy past be thy past isn’t it? But why people always dig out my past?!
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I just want a simple life. Just a very simple life, can I? I feel I have nobody with me. I know I should not say this but I really feel that especially today.
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Who am I to advise people around me for I am a person who need advises too?
I really got to change my attitude! I've been too busybody now. =.=
I just feel tired and want to let go. Let it go ba.
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Sherina, do your part! That's enough! Remember! God will make a way when there seems to be no way! He works in ways we cannot see!
He will make a way for me. =)
Anyway, I was keying the database but end up using 3 hours to just key in 40 details. This is because discussing bout what song we are singing for next month. Wasted a lot of time. T.T
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Sometimes I would prefer to lock myself up from everyone else because I think no matter how close you and your friend or your family is there will be times where disagreements occurs. And, it always makes me feels not right. Not to say I want them to agree with me each time but at least understand my feelings and my way of thinking. They can always give their opinions to me but seems that they just shoot you without giving you any back door. I just feel so not right. I always try to help as much as I can but people always see me with different pairs of eyes. Let thy past be thy past isn’t it? But why people always dig out my past?!
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I just want a simple life. Just a very simple life, can I? I feel I have nobody with me. I know I should not say this but I really feel that especially today.
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Who am I to advise people around me for I am a person who need advises too?
I really got to change my attitude! I've been too busybody now. =.=
I just feel tired and want to let go. Let it go ba.
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Sherina, do your part! That's enough! Remember! God will make a way when there seems to be no way! He works in ways we cannot see!
He will make a way for me. =)
Saturday, May 30
I had enough of this!
Had a little argument with my mom bout next month event. Not really argue but just a little disagreement between us. I am still thinking whether I should go for the event or not. If I do so, I feel bad. But in the same time, if I go for the event, I feel bad too! I just hate to make decision and yet I always need to decide which way I should choose. I just hate this kind of feelings. Either do it or don’t do it. No matter which way I choose, I just feel sad. Maybe I should just let be until the day comes because I really can’t give any answer now nor decide anything now.
Thursday, May 28
Where?!
I want to see the stars
Stars that are bright
Stars that give me hopes
Stars that make me feel refresh!
O' stars, dimana aku boleh jumpa?!
Wednesday, May 27
My life will go on (2)
Woke up earlier today to go office earlier due to there is too many things are waiting for me. However, reach there around 8.40 a.m. so it’s not so early after all. Manage to key in all the leaves and doing filing later. Uhhhh.. ROUTINES. Just like what I said yesterday. Ish Ish. I have no idea actually what I want to do?! What is not a routine for me? I have no direction for now.
Being a little bit emo this few days. Maybe because of sick, back ache, leg muscle pain, tooth pain, sore throat and, and, so on. Ish Ish.. Sick and sick and sick. I am really sick of it. Sometimes I will ask what will happen if I am going to die soon? What will happen to people around me? Where will I go? Heaven or Hell? What will happen to the people I care? My friends. Will they feel sad? Or they don’t care? I know, I know, I am being so foolish here asking this kind of question but what if I am really dying soon? Nobody knows.
Perhaps I am just thinking too much. Being too serious this week.
Hope something or someone will make me happy.
Wait… Perhaps.. Tomorrow I will be happy..
Going to x-ray tomorrow. What a coincidence! =)
P/S: Elyssa, if you can’t comment in chat box.. Try to refresh it a few times.. My blog cacated, I think. Or.. Put comment there ba.. =p
Being a little bit emo this few days. Maybe because of sick, back ache, leg muscle pain, tooth pain, sore throat and, and, so on. Ish Ish.. Sick and sick and sick. I am really sick of it. Sometimes I will ask what will happen if I am going to die soon? What will happen to people around me? Where will I go? Heaven or Hell? What will happen to the people I care? My friends. Will they feel sad? Or they don’t care? I know, I know, I am being so foolish here asking this kind of question but what if I am really dying soon? Nobody knows.
Perhaps I am just thinking too much. Being too serious this week.
Hope something or someone will make me happy.
Wait… Perhaps.. Tomorrow I will be happy..
Going to x-ray tomorrow. What a coincidence! =)
P/S: Elyssa, if you can’t comment in chat box.. Try to refresh it a few times.. My blog cacated, I think. Or.. Put comment there ba.. =p
Tuesday, May 26
My life will go on.
The path that I am heading now is a path where I have no idea where my destination is. I am just like a blind man; see nothing and know nothing what is going to happen in front. I am no longer the little girl who cares nothing at all. I am a grown up child who is going to be 19 years old this year that are now working and facing problem everyday. Sometimes I really want to tell everyone that I want to give up. Just give up everything. I really feel very tired. Sometimes I will ask myself. I am not even 20 years old but why I need to go through all this things? WHY? Why I need to go through all this went I am secondary? Why now people can go for further education but I got to work like a cow here?! Question left unanswered. Instead of giving up, I got to go on with my life. How am I going to give up?! Giving up what?! I have nothing to give up. I can’t give up my job. I can’t give up my family. I can’t give up my life. So what can I give up?! I really have no idea! But I really hate all this routines going on. I am extremely tired! Just so tired!
Things always go upside down for me. Whenever I hope to do something, it will just turn from the way I wanted. When I wanted to continue my study, everything seems good in the beginning but later on it turns from the way I wanted. And now, if I want to continue my studies, I got to give up my work. How am I going to survive then? Maybe I am being to negative but I really can’t see my future. Am I going to be like what I am now? If yes, I hope I can go on. If no, so what I am in the future? I have no idea.
Frankly, I hate what I am doing now. Like I said it’s a routine. This routine will be forever if I don’t move on? I won’t get a higher post due to I have only a SPM certificate where the results is not that good too. But, I can’t be working as what I am now another 10 years time! When I imagine that I just give a big laugh. When I am, uhm.. let’s says I am 30 years old, sitting here answering calls and doing the same things.. I can say that I will be ashamed of myself.
People always say my mom is a burden for me to move on. No! It is not true! I am not sure about anything and everything but I am so sure that my mom is not a burden for me. People ask me to just leave my mom and do something better. I’ll never do that. My dad left us when I am just 18 months old. My mom is the one who take care of me for all this years. Whatever she did, all is because of one reason – me. She can just leave me also because of the situation on that time. But she did not. She raises me up. Give me education. She always tells me that she have nothing to give me, only education she can. That’s why she always asks me to study. She never pressured me about my study. When I am in form 5 I stop schooling for a month or two. People say is all my mom’s fault. No! I stop schooling because I wanted to work. That time we are having very difficult time. As a mom, she already does what she can do. She even wants to leave me so that I can have a better life. She is the one who give up everything for me. If is not because of me she won’t have all this trouble. She will be living in Singapore working happily and maybe have a good husband =p. Who knows?! But she took the path where she knows it will be difficult for her and gone through this path with sweats and tears. She is a wonderful mom. If is not because of her, today, I might not be able blogging here. I might not even survive until today. She saves my life. All of this because of just one reason. SHE IS MY MOTHER. She has the responsibility to take care of me. That day, one of my friends says that my mom is not taking up the responsibility as a mother. It is so wrong for me to work and she staying in the house and waiting for my salary.
First, she is working. She is taking care of the little baby. Although my mom is a little bit dumb dumb because she charge people with the most “incredible” salary. RM300! Yeah! My mom is a soft hearted person. Anyway, secondly, she never waits there, do nothing and take my salary. Because my expenses is so high! Food, transport, daily stuff and so on. Thirdly, it is not wrong for her to take all my salary, because for 19 years she take good care of me. This is just a small portion I give back to her. Now, it’s the time for me to take care of her.
That’s why for me now; wherever I am going to go I’ll bring her with me. All of this because of just one reason. I AM HER DAUGHTER. I have the responsibility to take care of her.
Anyway, I should end it here. It has been a long time I post something so long. I feel like posting something long because Elisa says my post is so SHORT but end up something a little bit emo. So, Elisa are you satisfied with my “long” post now?
Things always go upside down for me. Whenever I hope to do something, it will just turn from the way I wanted. When I wanted to continue my study, everything seems good in the beginning but later on it turns from the way I wanted. And now, if I want to continue my studies, I got to give up my work. How am I going to survive then? Maybe I am being to negative but I really can’t see my future. Am I going to be like what I am now? If yes, I hope I can go on. If no, so what I am in the future? I have no idea.
Frankly, I hate what I am doing now. Like I said it’s a routine. This routine will be forever if I don’t move on? I won’t get a higher post due to I have only a SPM certificate where the results is not that good too. But, I can’t be working as what I am now another 10 years time! When I imagine that I just give a big laugh. When I am, uhm.. let’s says I am 30 years old, sitting here answering calls and doing the same things.. I can say that I will be ashamed of myself.
People always say my mom is a burden for me to move on. No! It is not true! I am not sure about anything and everything but I am so sure that my mom is not a burden for me. People ask me to just leave my mom and do something better. I’ll never do that. My dad left us when I am just 18 months old. My mom is the one who take care of me for all this years. Whatever she did, all is because of one reason – me. She can just leave me also because of the situation on that time. But she did not. She raises me up. Give me education. She always tells me that she have nothing to give me, only education she can. That’s why she always asks me to study. She never pressured me about my study. When I am in form 5 I stop schooling for a month or two. People say is all my mom’s fault. No! I stop schooling because I wanted to work. That time we are having very difficult time. As a mom, she already does what she can do. She even wants to leave me so that I can have a better life. She is the one who give up everything for me. If is not because of me she won’t have all this trouble. She will be living in Singapore working happily and maybe have a good husband =p. Who knows?! But she took the path where she knows it will be difficult for her and gone through this path with sweats and tears. She is a wonderful mom. If is not because of her, today, I might not be able blogging here. I might not even survive until today. She saves my life. All of this because of just one reason. SHE IS MY MOTHER. She has the responsibility to take care of me. That day, one of my friends says that my mom is not taking up the responsibility as a mother. It is so wrong for me to work and she staying in the house and waiting for my salary.
First, she is working. She is taking care of the little baby. Although my mom is a little bit dumb dumb because she charge people with the most “incredible” salary. RM300! Yeah! My mom is a soft hearted person. Anyway, secondly, she never waits there, do nothing and take my salary. Because my expenses is so high! Food, transport, daily stuff and so on. Thirdly, it is not wrong for her to take all my salary, because for 19 years she take good care of me. This is just a small portion I give back to her. Now, it’s the time for me to take care of her.
That’s why for me now; wherever I am going to go I’ll bring her with me. All of this because of just one reason. I AM HER DAUGHTER. I have the responsibility to take care of her.
Anyway, I should end it here. It has been a long time I post something so long. I feel like posting something long because Elisa says my post is so SHORT but end up something a little bit emo. So, Elisa are you satisfied with my “long” post now?
no matter what I have to move on .. for now..
Monday, May 25
A note to heaven...
Girl,
I miss you so much. I am thinking am I a friend. I am a bad friend, maybe... I hope you are enjoying your "life" there.
I miss you so much. I am thinking am I a friend. I am a bad friend, maybe... I hope you are enjoying your "life" there.
Friends come and go in our life
Some you can still see them
Some you won't see them anymore
I hope I can see you "one day".
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Is a month of missing "someone" deeply and,
a month of thinking another "someone" crazily.
Sad and happy..
One girl
One boy
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO "KYS" - loveyousomuchie~
and and...
crazyboutyousomuch
Saturday, May 23
Back! =)
Hey! I am back.
Sorry for lack of updates! I think I was away for more than one week.
I was sick and also, I have nothing to blog about. You know, I am a person that easily lost inspiration. When something inspired me, I can blog, blog, and blog.
Anyway, maybe I will post a few posts today..
As I said earlier.. I was sick and... I am still sick. T_T yea.. Having back pain this few weeks. I have no idea what is happening to my back. I was on MC for 3 days. T_T I am so sorry for making everyone worry about me. I feel so guilty but in the same time I am thankful that there are still friends around me to support me when I am really down. Oh ya.. Nevertheless, my mother. She is very super duper worry about me! Sorry Mom! =.(
I will go for x-ray by next week.. *Hopefully* So people please pray that this back is okay.. Haiz.. There the $$ goes.. I am dead for this month and next month again! Ish Ish Ish!! Having sore throat now! I think due to LOL too much in CG yesterday with the crazy girls.. Yea! Yesterday the guys are sane and the girls are insane. =)
Youth is a place for me to find happiness. Without them I don't know what I will be. However, this few weeks I was very afraid! I am afraid that one day the Youth will just separate in their own ways. The youth is no more the youth. It is so pain to see people leaving one by one. I don't want this to happen but yet I know it will happen if we don't change. Actually I want to say sorry to the leaders for the mother's day lunch. The youth is too close to each other and we did not open to others. We sit with the youth and talk together. Giving excuses. I am so sorry.
Last time we were asked to concern bout each other, talk to each other. It is a very hard task to do it. Now, we can't separate because we want to talk and talk and talk to each other. Now, it is a very difficult task to ask us to stop. Very funny...
I don't know what to say or do now. I just can pray and ask God.
Sorry for lack of updates! I think I was away for more than one week.
I was sick and also, I have nothing to blog about. You know, I am a person that easily lost inspiration. When something inspired me, I can blog, blog, and blog.
Anyway, maybe I will post a few posts today..
As I said earlier.. I was sick and... I am still sick. T_T yea.. Having back pain this few weeks. I have no idea what is happening to my back. I was on MC for 3 days. T_T I am so sorry for making everyone worry about me. I feel so guilty but in the same time I am thankful that there are still friends around me to support me when I am really down. Oh ya.. Nevertheless, my mother. She is very super duper worry about me! Sorry Mom! =.(
I will go for x-ray by next week.. *Hopefully* So people please pray that this back is okay.. Haiz.. There the $$ goes.. I am dead for this month and next month again! Ish Ish Ish!! Having sore throat now! I think due to LOL too much in CG yesterday with the crazy girls.. Yea! Yesterday the guys are sane and the girls are insane. =)
Youth is a place for me to find happiness. Without them I don't know what I will be. However, this few weeks I was very afraid! I am afraid that one day the Youth will just separate in their own ways. The youth is no more the youth. It is so pain to see people leaving one by one. I don't want this to happen but yet I know it will happen if we don't change. Actually I want to say sorry to the leaders for the mother's day lunch. The youth is too close to each other and we did not open to others. We sit with the youth and talk together. Giving excuses. I am so sorry.
Last time we were asked to concern bout each other, talk to each other. It is a very hard task to do it. Now, we can't separate because we want to talk and talk and talk to each other. Now, it is a very difficult task to ask us to stop. Very funny...
I don't know what to say or do now. I just can pray and ask God.
You ask me why
Why I am so different?
Thursday, May 14
teehee.. xD
Okay. I got two things to blog for today!
First! To someone very special!
Thank you for giving me the mushroom on Sunday! =) <3
It mario mushroom but I like it.. I am thinking where to put this cute mushroom. teehee... xD
Thank you for being such a wonderful sis all the time. Throughout these years, having you as a friend of mine, I am really very glad that God placed me in this church. =)
you know who you are.... *the ms stars & ms dolphin*
Secondly! To someone very old. xD =) You turn 23.. YOU know, 23.. 20 +3?? 30-7?? haha..
haha.... Anyway, Kor Happy birthday yea... God will always bless you abundantly! xD
lalala.... lalalal..... Ahem... Happy birthday....
Monday, May 11
Thursday, May 7
Back pain...
Hey people,
Still remember Sherina with the back pain?
Still remember Sherina with the back pain?
Sobs. It hurts and I want to break that back! Ishhhhh... T.T
My heart will go on
You say you gave me your heart
You say I crush it
You say you are hurt
You say and you say and you say
Where's the heart that I have been waited for so long,
Once, I thought it is given to me but yet it is not
Once, it almost reach my hand but YOU snatch it away and
give it to someone else.
How many times my hope breaks
How many times my heart breaks
How many time I breaks
When can this breaking stop?
First time - my heart breaks into just tenth pieces
I can easily pick it up and put it together.
Then - my heart breaks into hundred pieces
It is painful to pick it one by one to put in back together
Yet I did it because of YOU
and I remind myself not to get hurt again
Again - my heart breaks into thousand pieces
I really wanted to just let this heart to be just like that
I have no strength to pick it and put it together
Yet, I do it for YOU.
I pick it up carefully make sure I am not hurt by the small pieces that will cut me
Now - my heart breaks into million pieces
I have no strength and afraid to pick it up this time
I have no strength because I picked up too many times
I am afraid because this tiny pieces will cuts me and hurt me more.
I am afraid because this heart will break again
My heart breaks because I waited your heart for too long
My heart breaks because your heart did not reach me
My heart breaks because your heart always go for the other person
My heart breaks because your heart will never come to me
You said that if I want the heart I will get it
But how long I waited that heart to come?
You said You said and You said and I am NUMB now
However, my heart will go on now.... by myself....
TRUST
I trust someone too much and what I get is hurt. Yet, I, still, TRUST hxx.
I am really hurt this time but I know I will recover fast and I'd let go everything.
Saturday, May 2
Lee Hom Concert on 2/5/2009
HOHOHO.. Today is the big day for all Lee Hom's fan! I am so sad. I am not going due to no money but I'll make sure the next concert I'll go! Lee hom Jia you for tonight. The concert in Singapore was a BLAST! (See people blog so I know) I hope tonight all Lee Hom's fans will enjoy and if possible take lot of pictures with lee hom.. Oh yea.. My friend, Mei Ling. Remember to hug lee hom if you got the chance! ENJOY YEA MEI LING!! Lee Hom Lee Hom Gambate!! =)
Oh yea!Happy advance birthday Lee hom! ..
Sorry
Sorry! Image from: sorry- i am not sure.. found it in google
Just want to say sorry to whoever I hurt before. I think sometimes I don't really know how to cares about people's feeling. Sorry about that. I always take things for granted. Last time, now and I hope its not forever!! Last week, eventually I abit harsh to someone. My tone and sentence is kinda not so good. Sorry. So sorry! I really feel guilty to someone. So I blog it here to apologise!
I will CHANGE! Amen!
Thursday, April 30
Rain + Rainbow
Rain Rain Rain! Please rain. These few days it is getting hotter and hotter! I need rain.
I love to see the rain drops on the leaves, the pouring rain on the floor. It is beautiful! I remember once when I was really sad for something and feel like crying, the rain pour down beautifully. I was staring on the ground and look at the pouring rain. It washes all my thought and I started to smile. I feel that it is so relaxing when it rain! From that time onwards, I really love rain!
O'Lord Please give us RAIN~ =)
RainbowI saw rainbow yesterday! It has been a long time since I saw the last rainbow. I think it almost few years back. When I look at the rainbow, there's a thought came into my mind suddenly. God is good. Be happy always and there's someone who love you! Tommorow is a better day! Miracle will happen! =)
Image from: google
I got curse!
I'm sleepy!Image from : dailypuppy
These few days I am curse by sleepy spell! Whether it is day time or night time, I just feel so sleepy and you know, LAZY comes together! I guess it is due to lack of rest and too tired all the time. Perhaps what Gab say is correct. I got to take up some time to go for exercise. But! I can't be exercise by myself all alone. Anyone interested?! Come join me! =)
Anyway, I think I got to prepare a schedule for myself. I do not have enough time nowadays! Really need to change this hectic lifestyle!
O' Good Luck sherina! =)
Wednesday, April 29
Saturday, April 25
Dedicate to CL
Haiyo.. Thought want to stop blogging but darling CL is here.
Since DARLING CL is here.. I got to continue to blog lor.. Cause.. My darling mar..
Wei CL.. Don't vomit a!
Sui CL! You count la.. How many months didn't find me?! Don't want me jor is it?!
So sad! I miss you so much o! When only want meet me ar? Sui yeh! Ok ok.. I don't want scold you jor la.. Later you angry ma no good lo.. Den you angry me ma no Darling jor lo.. hahaha
Crapping only me.. With the so not english style.. =.=
=)
Okay, CL is one of my darlings.. ONE OF MY DARLINGS. No la.. CL is my one & only darling. =) CL is the closest person I known in secondary. CL helped me alot. I can't repay what CL did for me last time. I only can say thank you one thousand times or perhaps million times.
CL ar CL... wo ai shang le ni. What to do ar??!! haha
WHO is CL?
er... I will like to put CL as mysterious person. CL IS MY DARLING.. haha... CL is going to faint after reading this post..
Since DARLING CL is here.. I got to continue to blog lor.. Cause.. My darling mar..
Wei CL.. Don't vomit a!
Sui CL! You count la.. How many months didn't find me?! Don't want me jor is it?!
So sad! I miss you so much o! When only want meet me ar? Sui yeh! Ok ok.. I don't want scold you jor la.. Later you angry ma no good lo.. Den you angry me ma no Darling jor lo.. hahaha
Crapping only me.. With the so not english style.. =.=
=)
Okay, CL is one of my darlings.. ONE OF MY DARLINGS. No la.. CL is my one & only darling. =) CL is the closest person I known in secondary. CL helped me alot. I can't repay what CL did for me last time. I only can say thank you one thousand times or perhaps million times.
CL ar CL... wo ai shang le ni. What to do ar??!! haha
WHO is CL?
er... I will like to put CL as mysterious person. CL IS MY DARLING.. haha... CL is going to faint after reading this post..
Thursday, April 23
A reminder for me, myself and I
Don't feel like blogging nowadays..
Can't put anything into words!
I think I should just stop blogging now!
Instead of expressing myself, I am just crapping all the way from the very first until now (400++). i wonder how people suffer with me all this while!
Anyway, let me think whether I should just stop blogging,
Meanwhile,
There's this - whatever you want to call it, for me.. its a reminder.. so... Up to you. Just my inspiration come and I jot it down here now. Enjoy ....
You are beside me
You are with me
Every time and
Everywhere.
You walk beside me
Through all the darkness days
But I never realize
Because I am blinded by surroundings
How many times I got to remind myself?
How many times I got to repent?
How many times I failed to stand for You?
How many times I fall to something else?
I never know how much it cost
Yes! That cost I will never know
Every time I pictured it, I can feel the pain
But I'll never feel the pain that You gone through!
I always feel that I am in pain
Actually Your pain is greater than mine.
Every time I have things to plan my way
But actually Your plan are far more greater than mine.
Now, a reminder to myself....
Change your thinking.
Change your attitude.
Do not do things that are not right.
Do not think you are useless. =p
Love your neighbors as yourself
Treat everyone fairly.
Do not hate for it is murder!
Read the bible frequently!!! - EVERYDAY!
Know that He is in control
Commit everything to Him
Remember to pray. not only for things you want.. but pray for people, the world, the nation, the country the state, your friends, your family, your love ones. PRAY!
Do not take things to seriously especially those negative!
Forgive and Forget!
Can't put anything into words!
I think I should just stop blogging now!
Instead of expressing myself, I am just crapping all the way from the very first until now (400++). i wonder how people suffer with me all this while!
Anyway, let me think whether I should just stop blogging,
Meanwhile,
There's this - whatever you want to call it, for me.. its a reminder.. so... Up to you. Just my inspiration come and I jot it down here now. Enjoy ....
You are beside me
You are with me
Every time and
Everywhere.
You walk beside me
Through all the darkness days
But I never realize
Because I am blinded by surroundings
How many times I got to remind myself?
How many times I got to repent?
How many times I failed to stand for You?
How many times I fall to something else?
I never know how much it cost
Yes! That cost I will never know
Every time I pictured it, I can feel the pain
But I'll never feel the pain that You gone through!
I always feel that I am in pain
Actually Your pain is greater than mine.
Every time I have things to plan my way
But actually Your plan are far more greater than mine.
Now, a reminder to myself....
Change your thinking.
Change your attitude.
Do not do things that are not right.
Do not think you are useless. =p
Love your neighbors as yourself
Treat everyone fairly.
Do not hate for it is murder!
Read the bible frequently!!! - EVERYDAY!
Know that He is in control
Commit everything to Him
Remember to pray. not only for things you want.. but pray for people, the world, the nation, the country the state, your friends, your family, your love ones. PRAY!
Do not take things to seriously especially those negative!
Forgive and Forget!
Wednesday, April 22
Tuesday, April 21
Pls
Talking to you is fun actually... =)
My mood getting better but... but.... I hope I don't see anyone tonight... =.="
My mood getting better but... but.... I hope I don't see anyone tonight... =.="
Monday, April 20
Saturday, April 18
wang lee hom again!
Okay I am too much!! lol
This is bumblee computer with msn7.0
all wang lee hom!! kahkah
This is bumblee computer with msn7.0
all wang lee hom!! kahkah
Friday, April 17
WANG LEE HOM!
I am WANG LEE HOM FREAK! Haha! You see... Desktop Wallpaper in office de.. and window live messenger punya display pic circle in green de.. is him.. Saw the yellow i circle de? its him also.. can c shoulder oni! I am crazy of him! WANG LEE HOM! YAHOO!
If I got money, I sure will go his concert! but too bad. I don't have $$.. sobs!
^^ONLY LOVE LEE HOM^^
A letter
To whom it may concern,
I try so hard, so hard to make friends with everyone. Yet, I don't think I can.
I thought this particular person can be a close friend of mine one day. However, things change. Attitude change. I do not know what did I do to make this person angry. Perhaps just asking that person to do something everyone suppose to do? Will this make someone angry?
If you think you are busy. What about me? Am I sitting there shaking my legs doing nothing? I did not! Even I ask you to do that particulat stuff, I, will help you to do it. This is me! Although how busy am I, I still do it for you - FRIENDS. I always try to care for friends. Now you get to know others better and you try to abandon me? Am I a tools? Am I that bad to be a friend of yours? No matter how sad am I with how you treat me I dare not show you but now, just a simple things, you show faces to me!
IS THIS CALL FRIEND?
---------------------------------------------------
Anyway, today wake up earlier to office. Earlier one hour to help HR Manager. A lot of last minute work. Luckily everything is okay now. Just now we were rushing everything. and, and, because of this I can see things.
you might never know I am sensitive. what face you show I know. I just keep quiet! But please... DON'T TOO OVER!
From the lonely girl.
Thursday, April 16
PLEASE CHANGE ME
I've been keeping lots of things in me.
And nowadays I've been a bad girl.
Really bad...
The very old me had came back and haunt me.
I did not stop it but I let it be.
I lied a lot of things to myself and people.
I break all the promised that I made.
I did not follow the correct path.
I really did all this bad things once again.
I said I will repent but ........
I did not even try to stop.
I just say I want to stop but I did not put any effort at all.
I am so bad..
I feel guilty...
I feel like slapping myself to wake myself up.
I am so bad...
So bad...
O'Lord. Please help me. I know I am bad.. Please take out from that bad place.. The Satan is tempting me with all sorts of things.. I realise I am so bad. I know I should not got tempted but I still goes into it..
O'Lord please help me with my working place.. There are lot of unhappiness now. I don't like the way people treat me. But I do not want to have any hatred in me. O'Lord.. Please change me!
And nowadays I've been a bad girl.
Really bad...
The very old me had came back and haunt me.
I did not stop it but I let it be.
I lied a lot of things to myself and people.
I break all the promised that I made.
I did not follow the correct path.
I really did all this bad things once again.
I said I will repent but ........
I did not even try to stop.
I just say I want to stop but I did not put any effort at all.
I am so bad..
I feel guilty...
I feel like slapping myself to wake myself up.
I am so bad...
So bad...
O'Lord. Please help me. I know I am bad.. Please take out from that bad place.. The Satan is tempting me with all sorts of things.. I realise I am so bad. I know I should not got tempted but I still goes into it..
O'Lord please help me with my working place.. There are lot of unhappiness now. I don't like the way people treat me. But I do not want to have any hatred in me. O'Lord.. Please change me!
Wednesday, April 15
Monday, April 13
Right here waiting
Whatever it takes
or
How my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you!
or
How my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you!
Oceans apart day after day....
Saturday, April 11
Friday, April 10
Sobs.. missing my bro
Kor called..
"Mui, kor is leaving now."
"O.. I want mushroom mushroom mushroom! lol"
"sweat.."
"Ok la.. Kor take care yea!!"
"You too.. See you next week"
Ok....
Lol...
Kor... Take care yea.... Back in one piece yea! =)
Miss you bro!! =)
"Mui, kor is leaving now."
"O.. I want mushroom mushroom mushroom! lol"
"sweat.."
"Ok la.. Kor take care yea!!"
"You too.. See you next week"
Ok....
Lol...
Kor... Take care yea.... Back in one piece yea! =)
Miss you bro!! =)
Thursday, April 9
forever friendship
Roses are flower
That can last for an hour
Our friendship has the power
That can last FOREVER!
That can last for an hour
Our friendship has the power
That can last FOREVER!
Everyday I love you
I don't know but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you.
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn something new
Everyday I love you.
Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control
And you'll never live until you love
with all your heart and soul
Its a touch when I feel bad
Its a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you
-----
If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give my very best...
Everyday I love you
Wednesday, April 8
heartless - numb
Everybody need a change.
This goes to me. I got to change.. I need to change and I want to change.
Either changing from bad to good or good to bad.. I don't know what I am now.. Maybe I am good. perhaps i am bad... I have no idea... What I know for now is... I am heartless... I am numb.. Want to know why?
When there's a wound it is difficult to heal.. And when it is totally heal... It will leave a scar.. Yea.. A scar... That scar will always be with you no matter where you go what you do. The scar is there. This apply to me
Although everything back to normal but still there's that scar there. And this scar make me feel that it is different. Totally different.. It is not the same anymore like we used to be.
Move on?! I am moving on.. With a heartless body.. Numb body..
anyway, I am just crapping...
everything takes time... yea... I know
This goes to me. I got to change.. I need to change and I want to change.
Either changing from bad to good or good to bad.. I don't know what I am now.. Maybe I am good. perhaps i am bad... I have no idea... What I know for now is... I am heartless... I am numb.. Want to know why?
When there's a wound it is difficult to heal.. And when it is totally heal... It will leave a scar.. Yea.. A scar... That scar will always be with you no matter where you go what you do. The scar is there. This apply to me
Although everything back to normal but still there's that scar there. And this scar make me feel that it is different. Totally different.. It is not the same anymore like we used to be.
Move on?! I am moving on.. With a heartless body.. Numb body..
anyway, I am just crapping...
everything takes time... yea... I know
Tuesday, April 7
Chill
Oh my.. Msn is really making me killing myself.. I can't sign in! WHY!? ?! Why!!!
Anyway, new layout... and new fonts.. Pristina.. LOl. at first I put chiller.. lol... CHILL!
Anyway, new layout... and new fonts.. Pristina.. LOl. at first I put chiller.. lol... CHILL!
Thursday, April 2
I am ok =)
I know people around keep asking me whether am I alright..
I can tell you guys that I am ALRIGHT~~
WHY?!
This is a question of someone very close ask me.. Why I am ok?!
Oh dear, you want me to be sad?! LOL
Ok.. Let me tell you here.. *if you know its you*
1. I feel very free now
2. I know that there are lot of people actually enjoy me to be around with them
3. A lot of people love me. My friends, my mom, my youth and IMPORTANT one is... JESUS!
4. At last I can let go something from my shoulder.. I been put everything together and makes me feel so "san fu"..
5. I know what I really want
6. At last I know that I only love WANG LEE HOM. =p
and so so much...
I feel so happy now because
1. Joel G0h tell me something that encourages me. =)
2. Elisa advised me on certain things
3. Ying Yi always will wait for me to tell her my problems.
4. A brother that always very concern bout me... (gabriel)
5. A mom that always worried bout my health
6. Youth that always be there
7. Joel Chan that are so observance.
8. Joanna that haven't chase me for something. =p if you see this, pls come on SUNDAY!! =p
and so so so much more..
Actually I am not useless at all.. Because, I can do what I thought I can't. Actually I can!! All thanks to Him. Yeah.. Joel Goh and Joel Chan are right.. He will never forsake me although if everyone reject me.. =)
My father rejected me.. I feel so sad. But now I know God did not reject me. He is the real father! And now, no matter who rejected me, I won't care. As long as God with me. Sometimes it sad that people reject you but remember God is with you no matter what!
I can tell you guys that I am ALRIGHT~~
WHY?!
This is a question of someone very close ask me.. Why I am ok?!
Oh dear, you want me to be sad?! LOL
Ok.. Let me tell you here.. *if you know its you*
1. I feel very free now
2. I know that there are lot of people actually enjoy me to be around with them
3. A lot of people love me. My friends, my mom, my youth and IMPORTANT one is... JESUS!
4. At last I can let go something from my shoulder.. I been put everything together and makes me feel so "san fu"..
5. I know what I really want
6. At last I know that I only love WANG LEE HOM. =p
and so so much...
I feel so happy now because
1. Joel G0h tell me something that encourages me. =)
2. Elisa advised me on certain things
3. Ying Yi always will wait for me to tell her my problems.
4. A brother that always very concern bout me... (gabriel)
5. A mom that always worried bout my health
6. Youth that always be there
7. Joel Chan that are so observance.
8. Joanna that haven't chase me for something. =p if you see this, pls come on SUNDAY!! =p
and so so so much more..
Actually I am not useless at all.. Because, I can do what I thought I can't. Actually I can!! All thanks to Him. Yeah.. Joel Goh and Joel Chan are right.. He will never forsake me although if everyone reject me.. =)
My father rejected me.. I feel so sad. But now I know God did not reject me. He is the real father! And now, no matter who rejected me, I won't care. As long as God with me. Sometimes it sad that people reject you but remember God is with you no matter what!
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